It’s taken me so long to start my blog because I kept waiting for the right timing… until I felt like I was ready to be open and honest with myself as well as other people.
Here’s a spark note version of my story…
I became a “public figure” 3 years ago after my dramatic weight loss, which then led to a sudden modeling career, ultimately leading me to claim the title of Miss Arizona USA. I was accomplishing my wildest dreams and doing things that I never imagined would be possible. I was unstoppable and so confident in my own skin for the first time in my life.
I was suddenly a part of this world filled with some of the most flawless individuals that I’ve ever seen. I spent my time around experienced beauty queens, world-renowned runway models, brilliant business men and women, international designers, athletes, and pop stars that I’d loved since I was a kid. They inspired me to do more, be more, so that I could remain in this world long after I gave up my title.
However, somewhere in my adventure I allowed myself to fall victim to comparison and self-doubt. It built up over time and eventually got the best of me. I kept pushing myself harder and harder, but the more I pushed, the unhappier I became. I was consumed in trying to better myself, but I was looking in all of the wrong places.
I spent so much of my time on the Internet reading beauty blogs, researching different exercises and diets that would help me stay a size 2, watching hours of YouTube makeup tutorials, and scrolling through my Instagram comparing myself to all of these flawless, skinny, rich models whose job I still haven’t quite figured out.
For so long I remained quiet about the fact that I was struggling with insecurity because for some reason I assumed I was the only one.
I consumed myself in wanting to be “perfect” until I finally realized that my idea of perfection was completely skewed. When I concluded my reign, I gave myself a few months to take a step back and reevaluate who I was trying to become. I knew that needed to do some major work on how I viewed myself.
What I’ve learned during this break was the true meaning of self-love and self-acceptance. If you don’t genuinely love and appreciate yourself just as you are then you will never be truly happy. What you feed your mind, how you choose to spend your time, whom you allow to be involved in your life, and how you view yourself all affects the overall quality of your life.
How you feel in your own skin, how you talk to yourself when you look in the mirror, and how you care for yourself all composes your confidence level, and lets face it you can’t have confidence without self-love. It’s become clear to me that as a society we spend so much time focusing on our external beauty, but not nearly enough time making sure that our beauty starts from within.
Once I started to understand this concept for myself, I realized that nearly everyone is struggling with some form of insecurity. I’ve seen it in men and women, both young and old and it’s time that someone brought attention to it.
Some of the most successful, and beautiful people I’ve met are ones who understand their self-worth making them genuinely confident in their own skin. I’ve learned from them, and I will be featuring some of those role models in my blog so that all of us can learn how to master our own confidence. I promise you that when you finally learn to believe in yourself, you can accomplish your wildest dreams.
That’s why I started this blog. To create a positive space where my readers can learn how I’ve discovered self-acceptance, and hopefully it will inspire you to try it for yourself. The goal of this blog is to be real with you, and to have a good time doing it. To be honest about what I’ve gone through and what I’ve realized so that hopefully you can either relate to me, or you can learn a thing or two about what to do and what NOT to do. This is a mixture between an advice column, a personal journal, a beauty guide that focuses on both internal and external tips, all while incorporating my humor, random tips and facts.
I want to get to know you, inspire you, learn from you, interact with you, and grow with you. It’s taken me a long time to get to this point, but I am proud of who I am, proud of what I’ve gone through, and excited for what’s to come.
Let’s go on this journey, together.